rant all u want

S.N.H by short
Siti Nur Hazilawani in full
Juz turned Double 2 :)
Dancing & Grooving have always been her thing
Hopes that everything will be alright for the years to come

babyu knowhow i feelabout u ;)

I noe im useless and cant make u hapi:

how i wish if i cld turn back time when i was juz a lil kid nt knowing wat
stress is,how hurt actually feels like,how pain does it feels
how problems are juz getting out of hand even thou if it is juz a small matter.
I juz wana be a lil kid again whu is problem free,juz having fun and play wif toys
whu dun cry every single nite and the one whu has a great life..


I miz those times when we will laugh hard,talking abt silly jokes,disturbing other ppls,camwhoring in d skul toilet during lesson time,goin shoppin as a grp till nite,chilling out at out fav spot starbucks n juz gossip abt anytin hot frm d oven,watching movie marathons,playing dressing up,record video of our crazy moments,dancing in tat houz,giggling,tickling each other and act as doc n nurse,takin pix at d beach,job hunting together,pinching each other,wipe those tear away,goin for concerts,picking up frm werkplace,celebratin special occasions,no fights,support each other,talkin on d fon till late nite,those long smooches,getting caught at d back of d claz for eating,tryin on alot of clothes in d fitting room,sleepovers,claz bbq,lol at our slenge-ness,sitting at vivo top while eatin and how much i miss wen ur gone..

Let it juz bleed and bleed.. back to top?

Little mz poetic:

The dreams and hopes i've been waiting for
Had juz gone wasted drownin d drain
No more lifenez,no more looking forward in anytin
Half of d beat had been slower down
Juz like the half life bateri goin,goin,gone any moment
Itz harder now when evrytin seems wrong
Even d beat is gettin restless
Any moment it will put to a stop
Where i will nvr wake up again
Seeing those beautiful scenery
Those beautiful memories of mine
Those wonderful times i had since primary
The smile,the laughter
The ups and downs where we solved together
Evry single words said
Either verbal or non verbal
I still do cherish and remembered it
A sigle drop of tear i shed
Do have a meaning behind it
Happiness or sadness doesnt matter
The cloud has come to conquer
And no more sunrays will be seen
Except raindrops will be fallin
Like no other days
Where the moment i will lie on my bed
Juz emptiness and silence fills in
Where all my thoughts will seems endless
No tears,no smile,no laughter
Juz a piece of heart
That keeps beating and moving on
Moving on with my life
With all the pain and gain
Memories that will be runing thru it
Like a polaroid
And will only ends
When im back to where i belong.. back to top?

me wif ma purple hair extension which is now gone bt i still keep it

cute kan bdk ni..aryan?or arian?i haf no idea how to spell tiz kid name..haha..he has d mohawk hairstyle tau

us at amk pizza hut celebrating hui fen bdae

d direction of where i was looking was nt purposely eh..whuz d poor cameraman??!haha

havin fun suap-in fathin..hmm..woopz tatz nt d bdae gerl!!haha..d white shirt is d bdae gerl!!


Im back bloggin..haha:

+hmm..how long i log in ma blog again??haha
+sumtimes juz fel lazy la..or too tired to browse ma webbie n all..hah..hey im a bz gerl ok
+skul gettin hmm..quite a lot to rush..and designing a RETAIL MERCHANDISING UNIT aka pushcart aint easy ok
+and itz a competition for d R.M.U at harbour front..
+hmm..alot of things happen lately
+basicly life and skul..bt i cant wait for term break which on 15dec!!hehehe
+ so tatz all..actually i haf lotz to jot down here but as soon i start typin all d things i wana sae here juz poof!haha sorie
+aku rase sangat bersalah niari..seriously..biarla ia menjadi rahsia antare kite bertiga..(sengaje tulis dlm bahase mlayu tiz part klau tak ade org tu bace mati seh)
+pix will b posted..did i tell u how much i lurve changing ma hair..hahaha back to top?

Im not a plastic human:

+y i kept barging into ma pri skul frenz lately..hmm..bt they still do remember me..hehe
+dian farah n her mum was 1st..long time since i last saw her..i tot she was taller than me bt then she was d same height as me..haha
+we tok alot..like
she: hey u ingat tk yg dulu2 kite overnite at ur houz wen ur parents gi umrah
ME: yar2 i still remember..me u n haryani n ma bro frenz smue ade..i remember u fed up coz ade ketchup at ur hair lol
she: yar yar..funny seh..fun seh tat time bla bla
she:hey u da lawa seh
me:blushes(lawa ke??nga sleke2 ni ade la..pakai slack gle lg)hehe..u aso lg pretti
+yar i do adore her wen i was pri skul coz she pretti n i want to be like her..hehe..pri skul stufz lar
+then met wif fadhillah at bugis..she was so excited..we salam n walk seperate ways..
fify:omg!omg!she is so plastic
+pe saje la die..im glad i didnt went for skul 2dae
+down wif fever cough swollen throat n flu..haixx..at 6am i made a decisn nt to go skul as i woke up went 2 ma mum feelin restless n weak,touchin ma hair n forehead sayin "no nd go skul la msg ur fren later go doc"
+i feel like a small kid again:)
+went to poly for mc n ubatz..gawd how big d cough bottle cld b..mcm salit setahun lak
+bought couple of things wen droppin by at bugis..n head home sweet homee..now startin to feel drowsy la..nd rest
+lucky enuf no werk for me tiz wk:)
+i was a total blur sotong juz now wen sum unknown no called me
me:hello??hello??
unknown caller:bzzzz..bzzz..heloo??
*tooootooootooot*
2nd time
me:hello????!hello??!
unknown caller:hello..blabla(duno wat he was sayin)
me:sori wrong number
unknown caller:hello2 is tiz ct
me:erm..yes..(paiseh)haha
+so ande called..gawd noes whu is tat..all i noe is ma dance peepz
+he called to sae im in dancewerks in his grp..
+dancewerks like a drm come true..haha..itz been ages since i want to join in it..like how many yrs ago..now i gt d chance n fulfilled it..plz let me go pretti plz..
+itz sumtin i want to do in ma life b4 im dead..wld u support n understand me??:/
+ok enuf rantin..i nd sum rest n slp..gdnitez people!

ps:i owe u lunch n dessert!of course i will nt try to run away yar..i promise aredi since i lost..haha..misses evryone..:) back to top?

beary ferrero rocher..cute seh

sireh junjung..

ma top fav..d engagement cake!!lawa kan ade..(hmm i want to do tat aso hehe)

happy nampak dpt tangkap "ikan" haha..fiq,kai,yan n him

d couples..da mcm pengantin..haha

me n him

some of d hantaran...

d beautiful scenery frm window

fifi n fathin jln beraye at ma houz

me n fathin..cheese!!haha

fifi's cat!!cute kan!!


a big n tirin dae i shall sae:

+so hi2..haha..long time since i update anitin..
+i got lotz of pics bt mase tk mengizinkan..haha
+so yest 3rd nov..yesh..was ma eldest bro engagement..or tunang
+so much fun bt tirin coz we took turns washin d plates n wipin..n me aso servin d pplz drinks,angkat2 piring kotor n aso nt 2 b miz carry our hantaran to d galz houz..
+total there were 15 dulangs of hantaran frm our side..hehe...sum me n mumy made ourselves
+bt then i 4got to take d pix..slam!bt nvm..i gt sum pix of d hantaran frm d gerl side.hehe
+let juz sae a kecohrable dae at ma houz..n full houz!!sampai pat lua tau..hehe..
+enjoy d pixie!!
slamat menyambut hari pertunangan to norman shah(ma bro) & kak nani!!! back to top?