rant all u want

S.N.H by short
Siti Nur Hazilawani in full
Juz turned Double 2 :)
Dancing & Grooving have always been her thing
Hopes that everything will be alright for the years to come

babyu knowhow i feelabout u ;)

such a f***ing dae:

+ma mind was filled wif vulgarities n fed up
+thx 2 d rosita n zalina
+siak ar tat dae i asked her "cher nd 2 bring d mock up on fri or nt or take pix?"
+then she said "no nd 2 bring u cld JUZ TAKE PIX"
+then ok la todae did d mock up d took pix n left d mock up at home
+reachin d skul 20 mins late,evryone had their mock up n all except me n fify
+then d rostina scold us like mad sia sayin " im nt gona c ur presentation coz u nvr read ur brief properly n stated clearly"
+wth sia..zalina told me personali tat dae..she didnt sae anitin else smue can can now no no..fuck realli..
+then she wanted to fail us n ask us to go back home take d mock up
+ruma klau dkt tkpe ar itz like yio chu kang to pasir ris hello??!!
+n d oni wae was to do d mock up again in clas by d end of d lesson..wth sia..
+i oni slp for 2 hrs juz doin d mock up n all n she aint markin it n ask to do a new one..soyal btul
+after both leave d room 4 break i shouted fuck u n start to complain..sape tk binget n fed up seh..
+such a f sia..f dae..
+thx alot..
+arghhhhh........can i go out now n ease ma mind after watever happen frm mornin till nite...worst dae of ma life..seriously back to top?

Addicted;

+skul oni been for 1 wk n lotz of project given..n aso add prject thx to d zalina..gona b bz again
+nxt wk gona haf an excursion wif d whole claz to vivocity coz zalina wana show us d add project tat we gona do...
+stress but still laughter filled us..
+so i was d ideal model for color studies clazz..so im d manequin for d grp..
+seronok eh krg decorate2 aku mcm christmas tree..
+our theme shld b fun n playful..n thx to ma polo tee they gt d idea frm ma shirt..pictures shld show u wat i look like..haha.
+evryone was laughin hard even d teacher..many camera shots at once n i duno which one to look..
+paiseh enuf d zalina took ma pix n transfer to her laptop n show it at d projecter screen..besar seh ma pix..malu nyer
+im ought to hide if other classes n lecturers saw me..haha
+been visitin ARND MA pakcik n makcik houz..penat seh...and aso im sick so nt a gd time
+even todae i decided nt to go werk..haixx..im feelin super hot inside but super cold outside..sheesh..nt to mention d cough sux..
+theres a video to post aso..video of me haha..actualli its a request frm fen coz she ask me to sing d barney song i love u u love me..
+i did sing except more to mime singin..so dun try to adjust ur speaker coz theres no sound of me singin..haha
+it will b posted soon..
+tot todae was gona b a hapi dae..but i doubt so.."hapi ani"

TaTa..
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ma beloved parents!

ma dear cute nenek..

d uncle n family

d aunti vogue n d childrens

2nd dae of raye..posing nampak!hah

our family!!1st dae of raye..black n white theme..haaha

posing wif d sport car..anyone wana ride wif me haha..sape nye krete je posin2 haha

ma eldest bro wif d gf


Itz sux:

+5hrs of straight lecture!!!sux 2 d max
+new teachers wif sum ground rules n more fines sux again!!
+sadness filled me..sux big time!!
+aint goin to elaborate watever happens..
+and to ma beb ira i fel sorie 4 u for ur break up..cheer up gerl k..u haf me n d rez of us..haha..theres still other guys 4 u la preti2..jgn takut..;P
+i want to jln raye bdaly wif ma frenz..nt bcoz of kiasu nk duit bt i miz them..i want to reunite again..haha
+so im juz goin to post d raye pix..quite alot heh..
+anione cld view ma bloggie k no restictions..unless u r rude u cld leave..i'll b glad.. back to top?

Tat is not in ma list:

+2dae was 1st dae of semester 2..kinda lazy to go skul coz im stil super slepi haha
+it was so surprising tat everyone of ma claz peepz change hairstyle..mcm kiut gitu la smue ati sejiwa tukar hairstyle..
+wah here n there..let juz sae kecoh..haha
+tho im sick n kp coughin bt i still laugh like mad..sheesh..itz been a long time since i llaugh hard wif d gerlz..haha..i almoz choke ma apple k..heh
+gt new teacher..zalina is her name..she is one strict teacher ler.."no slippers r allowed in ma claz coz i dun want u to look sloppi"
+and tat joon kiat..wah..i dun wana recall how he pronounce ma name..and btw he seems gay..u noe like those bapok2 wif d hand u noe wat i mean..serious..
+1st dae of skul da dpt project..haixx..panic strikes again..an i fast forward to ma 2wks skul holz plz..
+after skul went visitin dad side..not all..oni 3 houses..
+pix will b posted later later eh..im too tired to post now..haha..i nd my beauty slp!!boo hoo
+tdo tk ajak..hmmmph
+bt nvm u shkd rez n eat medicine k..
+how im goin to survive 2moro..design history???!!yukes man..juz haf to wait till 6pm
+i duno y la eh..arrogant in ma face n dressin??d prob is dun judge me by cover..get to noe me n u will noe d real person i am..haha..arrogance..haha
+ so wat u ppl tink of me at first sight huh??any comments??

Ps:gdnites to all esp to ma bmoo..get well soon..muaxx.. back to top?

Bsok da raye:):

+so yest was like musibah dae 4 me thx
+i was so hapi tat im done wif d gold paintin n then it gt wae worst
+evryone was screamin here n there..dad kp askin me wat tings n ma lil bro aso ade mulut tknk ckp sendiri..hmmph
+n so gt me a headache n tat tin of gold paint drop n spilled..yes spill down d staircase n walls..
+mum saw it n was scoldin me..nt ma fault..im so tense seh
+n thx for d paint which made ma hand gold..like sum gold digger..both ma hands r in gold color abit on ma leg too..
+gawd cld tiz b ani worst..hating minyak tanah paint coz u haf to use turpentine to remove it which i dun like d smell of it
+makes me dizzy n fel likes vomittin lg2 nga puase2..haix..thx eh paint..aniwae 3 quarter of d paint was spill so yar u cld imagine betape banyaknye paint itu tumpa
+sunnguh menyedihkan
+todae had headaches n back pain due to overwerk..n aso lackin of slp..sob sob
+wanted to go geylang bt then..dun wana mention it..
+hopefuli 2moro a beta dae

+To all slamat hari raye maaf zahir dan batin..:) back to top?

Madness it is:

+2 more days to go to hari raye!!haha
+estatic??of course la bt on d other hand aint ready to go skul which hapens to b open on 3rd dae of raye..sheesh..
+i still haf some hw to do lar..no time to do d hw due to bz wif d houz thing coz of makeover sane sini moving in n out of furnitures..haixx..penat la siot
+and tho its still 2more days to raye d houz is still in a mess..yes messy gile..
+for 2days helpin mum wif pasang langsir,lilit2 d langsir pattern(im proud of ma creation haha) n other stuffs la coz mum bz jahit-ing..
+for 2moro i nd to paint d stairs railing n aso d gate gold color..tedious kan..evry yr aku gak kene paint smue bende2 ini..bt shld b finish 2moro..n aso pasangkan kain cadar to evry room..
+left for cleanin up d mess around,final touches n done..hopefulli will nt drag till mlm raye la..
+wana relax n enjoy d sound of takbir which always brought me to tears listenin to it..it touches ma soul..n all d memories will eventualli flash back..heh
+i still nd to do ma inai..haha..duno wana go geylang to do it or tamp..any followers??
+so tatz all..im touched for thos whu miz me..haha..ingat gak krg pat aku ehk..hehe..me miz u all too!!:) back to top?

hapi yet a slenge dae:

+no comments bt ma hair color..letz juz sae i look like d x-men rogue at nite..in d mornz i look like erm..shall nt mention it..da mcm adidas pat sebelah kiri tiga stripes..ma 2nd bro kps laughin bt it..sheesh..tkpe2 stlo pe tk penah ade org ade..
+so went out todae wif d bestie shaz!!!haha..finali we met eh..coz i had no one 2 teman me..ma wife was awae 2 jb..so met shaz near masjid sultan tunngu die biz keje la
+met her fren shahida..so head of 2 d mrt bt along d wae singgah toilet at raffles hosp..
+it was damn funi lar wat hapen outside d toilet between me n tiz unknown gerl whom i juz met..we tok 2 each other tho tk kenal haha..shaz noe y i lol bt tat toilet incident ting
+so continue d walkie 2 mrt n we met fiq,yan n anuar there..wat a coincidence lar
+straight up to plaza sing to buy mum stuffs..we tok n tok..laughin like mad till tears comin out 4rm d eyes..heh..
+we had our "buke" at long john..ma treat 2 d beb..n ma slenge ness gif d cashier 20 bucks..padahal aru 9 bucks plus..
+beh org tu ketawe ckp "nyak nye kasi..ni ten dollars nk kasi saye duit tip eh?"
+paiseh la..wat u tink..sheesh.i juz smile bt fel like smackin ma head
+shaz cant stop lol at LJ..lesson 2 b learn dun laugh wen ur mouth is full..heh
+since mum stuff nt available there we head to vivo..
+kp langgar pplz..we wait 4 d mrt at d punggol side padahal nk pi harbour front..aiseh man..nasib ku lihat if nt da board tu mrt pi ke punggol..haha
+at vivo lak circling d level 3 to find tat daiso shop..evry map n directory kite bace..(dlm hati mane la daiso ni!?)
+we walk2 at level two da stress skali terpapang logo DAISO juz above us..wth seh..sheesh..another slengeness..
+after tat went to forever 21 shop..ma godness i like sum of d outfit seh..pretti2..but one ting tat cant take ma eyes of it in fact i kp tinkin bt it now!!
+n it was tiz gold bracelet wif white diamond on it..sheesh bling2 sia..i like..itz so jambu lar..shld haf buy it la tadi..told mummy bt it n she sae "gi beli lar..nanti kau asik teringat2 je'
+mmg btul pun..i kp tinkin bt tat bracelet..d image wont fade away frm ma mind..
+then went to topshop..n i spot some cute boxers..haha..i did buy 2 pairs..itz pretti2..haha
+n we outta there walkin again towards d mrt..at 1st i saw twins wif d bf which look likes twin aso..then saw tiz guy wif long hair
+dlm hati sape aje la si mat rocker ni nga kasi btul rambut die..n guess whu tat mat was..PAUL TWOHILL lar!!
+me n shaz was like omigawd..tahan ketawe tahan..he look at both of us tau..after swingin d hair..after past him..we broke into laughter..
+took pix in d mrt..then i told shaz "eh kite alight pat outram ar tk nyak org..shaz "ok"
+bebual bebual pai outram pun da lepas so we had to stop at dhoby gaut..slengeness lagi!
+we waited 4 d mrt lg nk pi pasir ris..us were complainin asl nyak nye org..so i decided to c how long till d mrt arrive n i saw the headin at d plat from we were waitin
+TO JURONG EAST!!baik ar..we were waitin at d wrong platform..n d mrt towards marina bay baru lepas..baik ar..slengeness lagi lagi!!we kp lol..
+ dlm mrt crowded sunnguh wat u expect..d rush hr to get home..ntuhin 2 hold in d mrt so we hold each other n i accidently sit on tiz guy luggage went d mrt was fast..patutla mcm sedap gitu sandar..i tinkd guy was lookin bt i pretend nutin hapen..hahaha
+so therez go d 2 slenge gerlz for d dae..pai nk pecah perut ketawe nyak ngat..here r sum pix of us..still haf lotz frm shaz hp..will post it wen gt it ok..



so tiz is d bestie since pri skul tau..she is shazwani bte affan..n im so glad 2 met her again after brape bulanz tk jumpe..gue rindu si kamu!

our legggie..eventualli we wore d same color jeans..haha

us waitin for mrt

lend me ur shoulders 4 awhile yar 2 place ma headie..haha back to top?

how long will it ends:

+2dae was up eli to finish up final touches of paint in ma room coz d bedframe was finali delivered todae..yipee!
+it was painting,cement-ing,vacuuming for 2dae..penat sak
+then mum havin slow tok wif me coz she had a bad drmt bt me n d bf..and mind u evrytime she drm bt me it was true..magic sia.oh mothers
+tho she duno wat hapen for d pass few daez tat me n d boi was havin a rough time n finali she noes it..
+she kept sayin 'aku da agaknye..tiz few days muke kau mcm moody je...etc"
+wat she sae was true la..tatz wat in ma mind aso tinkin
+masalah yg besar kite kecilkan dan jika masalah yg kecil kite hlgkan terus(true enuf la)
+i mean after bein 1yr togeda we shld be more lovin n carin towards each other..lebih matang dlm pemikiran n lebih memahami situasi tersendiri etc
+until how long tiz ting u wana continue..i want d u "u" to b back gain..
+if tiz continue for a long time im afraid mite not take it
+not oni u felin stress..i am too..lg2 nk dkt hari raye im bz i admit it coz im d oni gerl n oni one whu do all d work seraknezz in tiz house..lain org tkleh hrp so oni me
+bt i still try ma bez in meetin u n tho cant met i still contact u..
+tatz all..
+so after buke ma family went to eastpoint 4 awhile..then head to mustafa centre till in d wee hours
+duno y fel excited maeb coz 2nd time stil outside at wee hrs..slalunye da tdo..haha
+then after shopping around our stomachs nd sum shopin too..
+HEAD TO bedok market place there to eat..had sum of my rotri john mushroom cheese n aso milo dinosaur..hehe
+our stomachs r hapi n so we head home..
=tatz y i am still half awake now coz i juz reach home n now d time is like 3.40 am..sheesh..i nd slp..
+furthermore 2moro nd 2 wake up eli coz nd 2 follow 2 jb..
+gdnitez to all..sweetdrmz ye back to top?

hating it:

+ can tiz mth be any worst!!
+i hate it..first time feelin like tiz durin ramadhan..
+theres oni tears n tears fill inside me..
+ i juz wana b alone in one corner n cry ma heart out..pai tk bernafas pun tkpe
+y muz b me??y??
+i juz believe in karma
+mum kp sayin y im lookin moody n sad..
+i juz kp quite n sae nutin..wat else to sae
+cant conitinue to write anitin further..
+d flow is gettin heavier..
+sampai bileka ini akan berakhir.. back to top?