rant all u want

S.N.H by short
Siti Nur Hazilawani in full
Juz turned Double 2 :)
Dancing & Grooving have always been her thing
Hopes that everything will be alright for the years to come

babyu knowhow i feelabout u ;)

d pain which killing me:

+werk has been hectic n im sotired coz of ma shift...n aso nt to mention cleanin upd buffet area alone!yes alone..tat dumb andrew haf no brain..now i noe tat evryone hates him...thx guys 4 tellin me
+2moro till sunday werkin split shift again tat means 11am-2pm n resume back werk at 6-11pm...i can die man werkin like tiz evry single dae...tink juz will be werkin full time till ma result is out ten change to part time..itz like i haf no life seh.sobz
+todae supoz to spent time wif moo in eli afternoon bt then was delay till 5pm ten met moo..ten to ws to return lib bks ten head to d beach to free ma mind frm werk..
+splendid time at d beach to sum pix n juz wen havin so much fun moo had to go home coz d dad kol 2 b home straight away..
+in ma mind was like 'wat???not again..haix'..n i was hopin to spent like d whole day wif moo bt then i oni spent like 3hrs n itz not enuf esp wen i didnt c moo for more than a week..haixxxx
+moo juz kp pleadin me tat cant sent me home n i juz kp quiet n kp ma head low..
+juz wana burst out cryin bt i manage to bit ma lip to kp myself from cryin..i juz reply back wif "hmm"..tiz has been several times n tatz y im so sad n abit piss wif i duno wat..
+moo juz kp askin y im quiet..coz im tryin to hold back ma feelings..so wen d bus came moo boarded it n sae 'promise to teman u later at nite wen i kol u'
+i juz walk as quickly as i cld n i ten i can feel ma teARS Buildin up...n wen i walk near d blk ma eyes r watery n ma vision blur n i cld nt find wth ma earpiece n tissue go...ten juz plug in sum music to blast in ma ear..bt didnt works..i kp cryin all d wae while wipin ma tears awae..almost trip at d carpark n i drop ma can drink..so shitty man..
+so wen i reach home stuff maself wif oreo cookies,sum bread n sum mee goreng thai..(tatz usually wat i do wen i utterly upset)
+watch tv to make myself beta ten moo kol n i was watchin extreme makeover..n i swear i can hear wat moo tokin..after 5mins later jz heard moo sae 'gdnitez i wana slp'...
+i was "arghhh..watz wrong wif u..sae wana teman me bt ten wana slp..n if u juz wana tok to me for 5min mine as well dun kol''juz makin me more upset..(tatz wat ma mind sae)juz sae gdnite gif a long sigh n put down d fon
+n ma tears roll again frm ma eyes..n there i go cryin again...haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
+juz wana take a panknife n juz poke2 ma pillow..haixx.. n d next time will met moo i guess wil b another 1 wk or 2..so devastated n hurt n sad n lonely..d laz ting i nd is sum cheerin up... back to top?