rant all u want

S.N.H by short
Siti Nur Hazilawani in full
Juz turned Double 2 :)
Dancing & Grooving have always been her thing
Hopes that everything will be alright for the years to come

babyu knowhow i feelabout u ;)

Ouch:

+juz came back frm werk n im super duper shag...todae was pack n i cant slp durin ma break coz of d noisy crowd outside d vip room
+n aso im nt feelin well...gt headache n aso ma back hurts...itz like im blur n seeing double2...haixxx
+plz plz..i wana change to part time..i cant stand full time no more..n itz like i haf ni life too..one dae off for a wk oni..sigh
+alah now keje tk gerek lg..sharina wana resign..ayo..jayrick laz dae on 5 feb..saidin laz dae on 10 feb...alah...no geng mlayu..like tiz i wana quit aso
+seng was so sweet todae..haha..he tot i gt fever padahal i oni gt headache..peje die
+he kp sayin"cpt sikit cpt sikit" then apply his lipbalm(haha...i noe vein man)ten ask "want me to help u?"
+ten he juz take d foodwrapper n wrap for me all d bowls n sae no nd to top up la...
+then d cook ppl kacau2 him coz he help me..ringan sikit keje..of coz i like paiseh la bt i noe he realli wana help me..so sweet kan
+he kp waitin for me coz tot i go home by bus bt ten ma bro fetch me..kesian seh wen i tel him tat ten his face like disappointed..alah...next time la k tell me eli2 if u wana go home wif me..
+k i shall stop here...2moro werkin at 11am...toddlez

Shout out:happy 19 bdae to u sharina!!!!sori no prezzie 4 u..nxt time yar...heehe..thx to ah seng for helpin me too..miz all ma gerlfrenz n aso moo..hugs n kisses 4 all of u! back to top?

restie:

+yeah finally ma off dae today so tat means no werk 4 me todae..yipee
+went out todae..nutin bizarre hapen juz normal stuff wen goin out
+to d rez of ma peepz sori cant meet u all today yar..nxt time saje
+n im hungry waitin for ma mum to come home n bring food!!
+haha...k tatz bt it...n tomorow will b werkin again..haiya..

Shout out:miz all ma wifez n all d ppl esp y.s.k.h..<3 back to top?

It ends tonite:

+juz came back frm werk...n im so shag..it was fullhouse today n i was runin here n there like superwoman..make a mistake n luckily nvr get scolded..haha..sori yar..im juz cunfuz after takin too many orders..hehe
+n im so sad today coz in d afternoon ma dearest anak fluffy died!it was d laz time i feed it in d morn today b4 i went to werk...ohhh fluffy..will gona miz u n im gona bury it 2moro...it will b d las time i will c fluffy face..sob2
+seng was so kind to wait for me again bt then i sae tat ma dad fetch me home n sae tomoro can wait for me..
+he so sweet lar..always ask me wat time i werk wat time i finish werk wen is ma off dae..he was like "y u werk always split shift one..next time i aso want to werk split shift sae coz u werk split shift n wana accompany u.."awwww...haha
+n aso he was telling me "u beta slp ar later go home..c ur eyes aredi gt eyebag..go n slp!make sure u slp n dun slp late..slp eli2"...awww so sweet rite of him like takin care of me at werk heeheh
+ten he look at ma name tag n sae "y u nvr put wani...siti not nice wani nice..same like ma name..haha" da mmg gitu ape nk buat
+itz a gd ting ma dad fetch me coz i cant walk properly coz ma legs r realli2 tired n r numb..sigh..
+k i shall stop here dun wana slp late n 2moro werkin at 11am again..so juz enjoy d pix

Shout out:happy ani to moo!zim u so much n hopin to c u soon i hope...to all ma peepz miz ya too yar!!gdnitez n haf a pleasnt drmz...will miz u dearez fluffy <3 back to top?

d pain which killing me:

+werk has been hectic n im sotired coz of ma shift...n aso nt to mention cleanin upd buffet area alone!yes alone..tat dumb andrew haf no brain..now i noe tat evryone hates him...thx guys 4 tellin me
+2moro till sunday werkin split shift again tat means 11am-2pm n resume back werk at 6-11pm...i can die man werkin like tiz evry single dae...tink juz will be werkin full time till ma result is out ten change to part time..itz like i haf no life seh.sobz
+todae supoz to spent time wif moo in eli afternoon bt then was delay till 5pm ten met moo..ten to ws to return lib bks ten head to d beach to free ma mind frm werk..
+splendid time at d beach to sum pix n juz wen havin so much fun moo had to go home coz d dad kol 2 b home straight away..
+in ma mind was like 'wat???not again..haix'..n i was hopin to spent like d whole day wif moo bt then i oni spent like 3hrs n itz not enuf esp wen i didnt c moo for more than a week..haixxxx
+moo juz kp pleadin me tat cant sent me home n i juz kp quiet n kp ma head low..
+juz wana burst out cryin bt i manage to bit ma lip to kp myself from cryin..i juz reply back wif "hmm"..tiz has been several times n tatz y im so sad n abit piss wif i duno wat..
+moo juz kp askin y im quiet..coz im tryin to hold back ma feelings..so wen d bus came moo boarded it n sae 'promise to teman u later at nite wen i kol u'
+i juz walk as quickly as i cld n i ten i can feel ma teARS Buildin up...n wen i walk near d blk ma eyes r watery n ma vision blur n i cld nt find wth ma earpiece n tissue go...ten juz plug in sum music to blast in ma ear..bt didnt works..i kp cryin all d wae while wipin ma tears awae..almost trip at d carpark n i drop ma can drink..so shitty man..
+so wen i reach home stuff maself wif oreo cookies,sum bread n sum mee goreng thai..(tatz usually wat i do wen i utterly upset)
+watch tv to make myself beta ten moo kol n i was watchin extreme makeover..n i swear i can hear wat moo tokin..after 5mins later jz heard moo sae 'gdnitez i wana slp'...
+i was "arghhh..watz wrong wif u..sae wana teman me bt ten wana slp..n if u juz wana tok to me for 5min mine as well dun kol''juz makin me more upset..(tatz wat ma mind sae)juz sae gdnite gif a long sigh n put down d fon
+n ma tears roll again frm ma eyes..n there i go cryin again...haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
+juz wana take a panknife n juz poke2 ma pillow..haixx.. n d next time will met moo i guess wil b another 1 wk or 2..so devastated n hurt n sad n lonely..d laz ting i nd is sum cheerin up... back to top?

My cries:

+yest was a terrible dae...all d plans had been cancel..all those words juz shrink ma heart..n as 4 normal wen i juz cant hold back ma tears anymore,i juz cover ma face n let d tears roll down ma cheeks..
+always kp telling myself to be strong bt i guess i juz cant help it..itz beta to let it all out then keepin it inside waitin to b explode rite..?
+today no msg or antin frm him since i woke up..quite upset tho..then decided to go to bedok wif ma mum n shop
+while otw there finaly ma fon beepin n itz him juz finish werk..
+then went shoppin wif mum at bedok n aso in search for findin ma sandal for werk bt in d end cant find d perfect sandal for werk
+either itz too slippery or nt nice or ex..haixx
+dun wori still can find it 2moro:)
+n as for 2moro,will b helpin ma mum at her werkplace as she is werkin full shift 2moro..
+n im quite glad coz now i haf a job aredi..thk god..so tat i cld haf ma own savings n pamper myself..yey..bt on d other side quite guilty coz i noe i wont b able to spend time..sighh..
+tatz all..havin goosebumps all over ma body due to d cold weather..rain rain go away..come again another day!!hehe

Shout outz:mises so much to all esp moo..plz wish me gd nitez n kisses today hopefully..im kinda feelin shitty tiz days...gawd!!its so hard to hold back ma tears while writin tiz..sob..

"theres nutin i wanna do..to hear ur voice again..sumtimes i wana kol u bt i noe u wont be there" back to top?

Round n round we went:

+yest was a blast spendin time wif moo..at d same time gave d prezzie 2 moo..heartz..lotz og laughin n spendin time togeda..n he cant stop singin!bt of coz still cute..hehe..took pix too..cant miz tat
+today went 4 job interview at great world at zara..
+d interview was nt bad bt at d start was abit tokin crap ar i tink..haha
+i tink ma bro gf too feel d same ting..bt d intervview was pretty long..
+then wanted to go marina sq 4 another interview at charles n keith so waited for d free shuttle bus service..
+so when d bus came we boarded d bus tinking it was goin to city hall mrt..
+n then it stop at china town..then return back at great world city!no wonder d place was super familiar.."k we r back to sq one"
+then d bus driver said d bus goin to city hall was at 5.30..so we waited again for 15min 4 d bus..n boarded d bus again...n guess wat..d bus dun even go to city hall..it went to orchard n back to sq one again!!
+me n kak nani was lol n aso fruz coz we kp gettin bk at d same place..then ask d bus driver wat bus go cityhall n he said"oh d bus come at 6.20..d 5.30 aredi go frm juz now"
+alamk punye binget mcm nk ketuk je bus driver yg ckp d bus dtg at 5.3o
+so without wasting our time we took a bus 75 which go to marina sq
+wastin 2hr juz sesat at great world city..haix..then sesat again at marina sq findin d shop...
+k lah to day was a bad dae 4 us coz we end up sesat n lost..haha..then went 4 d interview n filin up d forms again(so tired filin up d same old stuf)
+then we r told to folow tiz guy felix n he was "ok tiz is d storeroom where all d shoes r being kept..can u climb up to take d boxes??"
+like duh wat a stup qst is tat anywae..haixx..then after tat juz brief explainin blah blah blah..n he sae if successful ther wil b a 2nd interview(leceh btul la tempat ni)
+then went to took mrt which was pack like sardine..cant move ma body n ma nose was tuchin tiz lady hair n makin ma nose itchy n wana sneeze
+kak nani cant stop laughin bt tat..then stop at simei to meet mum..buy sum food n head home..
+n finally i can rez at last after walkin in circles like 2 lost gerlz n gettin squeez like sardine bt at d same time we had lotta fun...:)

Shout out:gdnitez to evryone n haf a pleasant drm..!!!watz wrong wif ma moo..if i did sumtin worng tell me...u r so silent today n it realli disturb me..bt nvm i noe u r tired..muackzz

"Is nt as easy as u tink if u r in my shoes rite now n u will noe d exact feelin i had all tiz time..no matter wat happen,therez a place 4 u in my heart.." back to top?

im so in no mood anymore to update wat i did today n im so upset n fed up..so juz posting pix coz u want it n there u r... back to top?

Spend it all out:

+yey finally i m goin shopping today after sitting at home do nutin
+went out 2 bugis wif ma mum,lil bro,big bro n gf,ma auntiz n lil couz
+k 1st stop banquet at raffles hospital!!yummy2!come food come inside ma belly..im so hungry k!hehe
+then walk around at bugis st n all..
+as usual me spend d most stuffs..haha
+bought 2 tops n one short dress n of coz a prezen 4 moo2..muz nt 4get tat!
+it was super duper crowded there la..ppl juz hit me,one guy step on ma shoe(which i totally hate tat!),a woman pushin a pram roll d wheel at ma shoe again n again(k by tiz time ma blood boil aredi n i tink i shouted "alamak bodoh btul ar..tk tau tengok kape mane jln main langgar je")
+ten went inside bugis junction for awhile n mumy wanted to go home..so we seperated frm our auntiez..
+took d mrt went home n ma legs r killing me..gosh im so totally tired,,i nd a massage plz..haha
+went to ws 4 a while coz mum nd to go ntuc buy sumtin n lil bro nd to go popular buy skul stuffz
+finally home sweet home..n mum started to scrm at d top of her voice bt d neighbour next door putting their bikes near our swing..n d kecohness started in ma houz n all n i was bz eatin ma sushi..haha
+after a while evrytin was settle..gd..peace atlaz..n i miss ma bed coz i nd to rez on it later..hahaha..
+ten went online 4 a while n 4 ppl r chattin wif me at d same time nt to mention ma hp beeping..wah im so wanted..haha..(tk tau malu):p
+i juz cant stan dtat nick..r u tryin to be sarcastic n hurt ma feelings even deeper??!!!
+tryin to focus ma mind on other stuff..thank god yan was there 4 me 2 console n make me feel beta..thx yan alot!
+so i tink i came 2 d end of updatin ma bloggiez..now time to rez n slp!!bed here i come..yey!!haha

Shout Out:gdnitez n sweetdrmz everyone!!!thx to those whu lighten up ma dae..thx alot..hugs n kisses..!!:) back to top?

Chapter one:

+im so piss by tiz dumb2 comp coz while i was updatin ma bloggie tat day it went to slp mode..wth after i wrote so long n all juz poof!stup2
+plz dun shut down again im beggin u...
+yey met moo2 yest..so hapi..
+oklah he try 2 kidnap me at 1st in d middle of d shoppin centre n i freak out n shout a "makkk!!"...jahat seh
+ppl r juz starin in ma direction...so paiseh
+n yest im so shag by werkin at d warehouz again..so stuffy seh inside n ma eyes juz wanna shut down seeing 2 many numbers
+2dae guess wont be goin out..stay at home n b a gd gerl..haha
+still searchin 4 a job tho...n aso missin moo too...
+tatz all wana sae...enjoy d pix here.. back to top?